need a change

realisation hit me one day.
i was lying on my bed, staring at the ceiling.
i thought of my life, i found it was far from perfect.
in fact, i thought it was far from acceptable.
i thought of what i have achieved in my 20 yrs... too little things i could recall
i thought also of my regrets in my 20 yrs of life.... and nothing much was recollected
it seems i haf not been living