Don't wallow in self pity

That's what my name tells me. My name means not to live self-indulgently, so I guess my father had wanted me to be someone who will rise above situations. But no matter how I try not to be narrow minded, I can't help but see only the bad things that are happening in my life now.

I'm going through a rough patch and I don't see how I can be better off anytime soon.

I look back at what life used to be and wonder why it couldn't be that way anymore. Life was more carefree and I did not have to worry about anything at all.

And now life took a change. When I start to worry about my future, I have to worry about many other things too, like the pointless family conflicts, the endless politics, my unhealthy lifestyle and also my friends who are in some troubles. And at this time when I'm trying to fix many things, I feel i'm left alone without a word of consolation.

Suddenly it seems to be pointless to fix anything.