I'm feeling very disappointed right now because I'm having too little control on how my life should be.

Social responsibilities, family expectations, personal hopes, dreams, work ethics, wishes, commitments... they all seem so heavy now. Everytime I thought I got it right, reality will slap me awake. They just can't go together. Social responsibilities against dreams, family expectations against wishes.

On the bright side, this is probably a reminder. Never get too comfortable. Never settle. :)

I feel a little tired with people trying to decide how I should live, even with the best intentions.