moodswings

Shitty feeling... My PPT's still not finished

I've been experiencing mood swings lately. I think it's immature to be feeling how I should feel in my teenage years so I always suppress my feelings. But sometimes I also think it's immature to suppress my feelings and act like a robot. Futhermore, it seems whatever I bottled up are ready to explode . Maybe I need a proper outlet.

While waiting for bus 81 tonight, I suddenly felt detached from my time plane. It was like how i used to feel on sunday nights. I was well aware that certain things were gone and they would never appear in my life again. I was also pressured by the challenges ahead in life. It was a shitty feeling to be stuck in that time where I could do nothing but watch the transition happen. I could feel the weight of problems resting heavy on my shoulders. It felt like I was engulfed in darkness.

I hate that kind of feeling

On happier note...

Victor arrived in the morning and it was pleasant to see him being as cute as before. Victor is currently 14 years old and I can see that he already has a strong passion for machines and technology. It's not hard to imagine him being an engineer or IT specialist in the near future. I think growing up in netherlands is so much different from growing up in singapore. In netherlands, you can spend your childhood looking for your dreams. In singapore, you're told what you should dream about..... particularly $$$$$$$$$

what to do... you can't do without $$$$$

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