Happy Valentines!!!

It's good to have friends around when you're in trouble. And I'm glad many people are helping me in my difficult time. Many people have been asking me to look at the bigger picture, something which I'm having a little trouble doing now, but I'll try my best k.

I guess I'm still a little emotionally unstable and I really need friends to tell me what is right and what is dumb. Thanks for all the reminders.

Here's a song that I really like

Don't wallow in self pity

That's what my name tells me. My name means not to live self-indulgently, so I guess my father had wanted me to be someone who will rise above situations. But no matter how I try not to be narrow minded, I can't help but see only the bad things that are happening in my life now.

I'm going through a rough patch and I don't see how I can be better off anytime soon.

I look back at what life used to be and wonder why it couldn't be that way anymore. Life was more carefree and I did not have to worry about anything at all.

And now life took a change. When I start to worry about my future, I have to worry about many other things too, like the pointless family conflicts, the endless politics, my unhealthy lifestyle and also my friends who are in some troubles. And at this time when I'm trying to fix many things, I feel i'm left alone without a word of consolation.

Suddenly it seems to be pointless to fix anything.

Join the rat race

The pig is finally gone, together with some precious things... and the rat is coming, hopefully with nice things

I don't believe in new year resolutions but this year I'm going to make some because there are changes to come and changes that happened. I just hope I'll be better off soon... let me think what i should do......:)

And then I have wishes that my family will be fine and well, friendship to be stronger, and everyone to be happy.

That's all.... happy little things that I want.

Well... if anyone is still reading my blog though it's unlikely... I wish for you a happy new year!!!!!