'With this equation we can derive beta off the first and third equation,' The prof explained, Danny nodded in agreement, the others scratched their heads furiously.

'Now we look at the specific heat capacity equation and how it's related to kinetic energy,'
huh??? i thought to myself, flipping thru my lecture notes desperately, where the hell is he?

'the assumptions of ideal gases are....'
i was completely lost, it was too much for my brain to take. i've decided to do something useful in the remaining hour. Say, should i help Danny position his head properly??? His nodding was attracting too much attention.

Danny stirred in his slumber. he opened his eyes to check his surroundings. The lecturer soon put him to sleep again.

I was sure the lecturer was trying to break the world record for making the fastest speech, he went thru 20pages in an hour without a break. I like the way the lecturer teach, if he had slowed down that is. He always sets up 2 OHPs and he will walk from OHP1 to OHP2 so that we can have some time to digest. I only hope that the distance between the 2 OHPs will be greater by 10times or he'll walk really really slowly.

The point being? i can't keep up with the lecturers!!!

Got TO remember this

sch started, and here's a summary of what i've gone thru in the past 2 days

1) waking up every morning to find that i've no idea what's going to happen for the rest of the day
2) skipping classes unknowingly
3) running around ntu like mad
4) taking supper every night with the group
5) bumming around......

that's the first 2 days of sch for me..... very shiok... but it's not going to stay this way

I'M back!!! the OriEntation was a Blast... now I'm DRAINED....

From my observation, beetles go through a series of hyperactive and inactive periods before they finally rest. During their waking hours, the transitions between these periods are rapid and sudden.  That describes my behavior in the Hall orientation. 

The hall orientation was nothing that i've seen. On the first day of orientation, i was already drained from my activities on sunday. We played with water, flour, starch, soya sauce, eggs, and paints. Got all dirty and wet. The first day went by, i thought it was like other orientations that i've been to, so i've decided to excuse myself for a while and hid in my room to sleep.

After the first day, everything happened so fast. We went sentosa, aranda, town, and back to NTU, sleeping less than 5 hrs a day. There were many things to do and little time to rest. During our waking hours, people who dozed off would be awaken by the rest of the group singing yippe aiai yippie yippie ai. Being tired was strictly not allowed. I must admit that sometimes i felt anger because i had to sacrifice my sleep for cheers and games, i had to keep control.

The rest of the people were filled with enthusiasm, so much that i couldn't catch up most of the time. But i didn't want to be a spoilsport, so i just followed motion lots of times. We had a cheer fight on our last night and we had to act fierce, i thought that was really dumb but since everyone else put in so much effort, i couldn't just think of myself.

During the orientation, the focus was to bond us together. They tried to make us think that touching lips and sharing saliva were gentle gestures. We shared crackers mouth to mouth and spit soya bean into each other's mouth. Speaking of which, sharing the soya bean was really disgusting, luckily i was the 2nd person along the chain.

The highlight of the orientation was the last night. We were all blindfolded and the seniors played with us for the duration of the night. One of them asked me to pick mentos from the toilet bowl. The other senior, who claimed to be my friendly neighbour, cracked an egg on my head.

After orientation ended, i wasn't particularly relieved or sad. But i must say that i really aprreciate the seniors' effort. They were the ones who cleaned up the mess after we played.

It was overall something worth remembering. I'm glad i've made good friends in the orientaion. 

Anyway, i think i wouldn't have time to slack anymore. After sch starts, staying in hall will just be another commitment.

the end of all misfortunes... is it?

1800hrs, I was happily walking out the camp with xinlong. Happy because that would be the last time i walked that route. Xinlong has labelled me the 'SAF suai kia'. now that i'm leaving SAF for good, it should be time that he change his opinion of me.

I told xinlong that after walking past the gate, that would conclude all misfortunes on me. Xinlong shook his head in disbelief. Whatever. Lightning flashed, it started pouring the moment we stepped out of gate, we had another 500m to walk in the open. xinlong shook his head silently.

Okay, perhaps i'm cursed in green. My whole NS life was an administrative error, as Big nose so adequately put it. I didn't have much luck either. There were times i really wonder if i should do anything to change my luck, times when i really hated NS, times when people doubted my actions, times people judged me unfairly.

Contrary to what others may think, my NS was not only about misfortunes and wrong decisions. I do not regret any decision that i've made. When my buddies stayed up late to look for my lost pass, when my officer patted me on the back to acknowledge my hardwork, Others do not see them, but i know. These were blessings in disguise.

So afterall, my NS life wasn't all bad. I loved it and i hated it. Long 2 and a half years... it felt forever. Now it's time to move on.

Breakfast with old friends

I was disturbed from my sleep at 8am. Haven't seen the morning sun for quite a while. It was frog on the other end, asking where i was. GHIMYONG!!!, he said the breakfast was cancelled, that was why i slept at 4am, now we got frog waiting for us. Hastily, we left our respective homes for srjc. It wasn't a nice feeling rushing to get things prepared, especially with the sleepy eyes refusing to open wide enough for the contacts.

And so the four of us met in SRJC. Qingyi, Ghimyong, Frog, and Me. Everything is still the same, students running around the sch, the tables and benches as they were 3 years b4, the teachers acting bz... They had some audition in the sch hall, probably SRJCian idol?

Library's the same... ma'am's still sitting at her favourite corner, the chairs are arranged exactly like 3 years ago, the librarians looked the same. We did a little catching up with ma'am, she still remembers us as chicken and duck (referring to me and ghimyong). hm... i felt as if i was a student there again. (anyway, a teacher commented i looked like their J1 guy in home clothings). Qingyi did a lot of catching up with various teachers. Frog too, met up with some of his teacher, but was given responses like 'why must u come back and haunt us???'

lunch was at SRJC's canteen (even tho frog wanted to eat outside). The food's the same, and still as bad... but we still ate there for old times sake. It was quite a pleasant experience really.

Hm... so that was not breakfast or lunch, it was brunch in srjc.

supper with old friends

It was actually my dinner, at 2230hrs.

Supper was at bedok hawker centre, the place with famous fried oysters, carrot cake, chao gu tiao... i remembered after i ordered some fish porridge.

It's really rare that Ghimyong will ask for a dinner gathering. I knew there would be a good reason. Anyway, i casually skipped the dinner outing and asked ghimyong out for supper (my dinner) after that. I was not the only one who was late, Qianxing too. Qingyi attended both dinner and supper gathering. The dinner outing was in town with qingyi's gal pals... may, lynn and debbie. wonder how they're doing.

Back to supper, the focus was on qianxing. qingyi was interrogating him abt his recent breakup with deb. They kept talking abt love issues, and i had to keep quiet at one side eating my porridge. i just hate conversations on serious matters.

Topics that followed, Ghimyong going Australia to study. Really surprising. just a while ago he told me that he's going arts and soci. The reason for such... he appealed for other courses and they din keep his place. what luck... He's not too sad abt it tho... going overseas to study may be better, and qingyi is studying there as well... haha

And so we ended there, the next time that i'll see ghimyong will probably be years later.

rockaby

'so in the end close of a long day went down in the end went down'
- Rockaby

My random search for something interesting on tv ended with this Rockaby. It was about an old woman in black rocking on a rocking chair staring out her window, while some narrator recited some poetry. I thought it was pretty artistic as i waited in anticipation for something to happen... 15 mins past and the old woman was still rocking on the chair while the narrator repeated over and over again. At the end, darkness descended followed by the cast roll..... hm.... it's the most boliao show i've seen but i was so intrigued by it.... dun know wat was going on.

anyone watched the show... pls enlighten me

'you actually watched the entire show, you also weird le'
- Joanne, over the icq

good point

movies

Watching movie was a real joy. It was a train ticket to a new world, a world of mythologies, actions, emotions, sci fi, and things beyond imagination. The fantasies we never get to live in real, but on the cinema seats. It was a moment of escapism, a moment without the officers yelling, without thick textbooks. It was fantastic, but not anymore.

I remember a few good titles, sixth sense, spiderman, xmen, a beautiful mind, shrek,LOTR etc. I watched these movies when i was very much younger, and i was brought on a journey of intense emotions, laughing crazily, feeling angry, being very nervous...etc (no crying). Those were the days i know i could rely on a good movie to brighten my day.

Just wondering why movie watching doesn't have such effect on me anymore.

The recent titles, spiderman2, shrek2, harry potter3, lord of ring3 blah blah blah. All sequels of my fav... and i'll say they're even better than the first, wasn't very entertaining (to myself that is, my friends love them). Are movies not refreshing anymore?

ARRRR.... When it rain, it pours

It's been a while since i last blogged. I've been trying to find the perfect skin and modify it to my liking.... FINALLY... it's done, after nights of browsing thru the blogskins, trial and error on the modification of html, and copying ideas from other blogs.

I wanted to write about something happy, but the day went so wrong. It's one of the few times that i feel anger again.... sian..... those stupid RPs. Hm.... and today must be a very unlucky day for me..... misfortunes come after another

At least i watched spidey2 with my kakis to help me relax a little. But i was so pissed that i wasn't really enjoying the show.