Thursday, December 30, 2004

my last entry of the year.... some reflections

b4 i go on, allow me some time to slap myself.... for dropping and breaking my camera (luckily it's still functioning)... for joining so many ccas and cant commit in any... for neglecting my work... for not doing many productive things in year 2004

done! (i din really slap myself, but really felt the urge to do so)

it's the last day of the year, but i'm not ready fot the new year yet. the ending of the year isn't a happy one. tho i was expecting much of 2005, it seems i'm the one expected for many things... i'm afraid i can't manage.

8 subjects, 3 ccas, 2 tuition kids, hall activities and some other commitments...

i'm so envious of ppl who got straight As for exams... i've decided that i'll work towards that next yr... while managing my ccas and other commitments well. that is to say, i must stop myself from stoning and playing.

some reflections:

i've been busier in my holidays than my sch days. bz with gatherings, courses, duties and stuffs...
i was so bz that i din even haf time to fall sick, but i did.

while lying on bed dying, i was so desperate to get off the bed. i felt handicapped for not being able to resume my normal activities when there's so much things to do. den realisation slapped my face hard..... i had been lying on bed most of my waking hrs even when i'm healthy...
i feel really guilty. hence, i've decided that once i restore my health, i shall work myself to death.

disasters that are happening in the world are also affecting me. i think it's very likely that one day we'll die of the most unexpected way, in an unexpected time. this phrase holds meaning for me now, live like there's no tomorrow. being the fortunate ones, i think we let down others if we waste our lives.

year 2005, it feels like any other time in my life, but it's surely more significant than i think.
For many ppl will be stepping into a different phase of life, bmt, sispec friends going to ord. lionel going overseas, no more weekend buddy. many friends joining the workforce soon, good luck!
for me, it'll be juz another cycle of wat i had in 2004, except i'm going to work harder.

zzz monster... go away

side note
i'm impressed. tho depressing, this time has shown me the best in human. ppl who r helping the tsunami victims, i admire u.

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

My deepest condolences to all who are affected by the disasters

To think that the beach hit by the tsunami was the place i once set foot on. The images of the place fit those in my memory perfectly, except it's now covered in water with corpses floating.
My memories on the earthly paradise is instantly replaced by the images of horror.

If it had been a different time, i would be a victim myself. I can imagine how painful it would be for my parents to learn that they've lost their son, when he had skipped merrily into the airport terminal a day ago.

It bothers me that some ppl r so undusturbed.

anyone wants to donate tents, clothes and dry food???

Sunday, December 26, 2004

My Christmas curse

I'm not a superstitious person, but the sequencing of misfortunes leads me to believe that i am cursed.

To think of it, it started 3 years ago. I did a silent countdown and quietly wiped the toiletbowl when the clock struck 12. The job wasn't pleasant at all, and the fat supervisor was there to ensure that. It was a Christmas spent in the toilet on an airplane.

Following that year, Christmas has never been pleasant. I was either doing guard duty or squashed by the bangalis. It did not make sense to me cos i haven't been naughty. Finally, it struck me that it was my good nature that cursed me every christmas. I juz couldn't turn away my friends who want to change duties so that they can celebrate christmas.

This year was no exception, although i was determined to enjoy my christmas. I was (still am) in great pain. A pain so terrible that it kept me awake in the night silvering under my blankets. I had to return home early and did my countdown on the bed. I woke up in the middle of the night in pain.

Fortunately, there's always the New year to look forward to. Every new year seems to mark a new chapter in my life journey, always pleasant, always exciting.

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

Sad Boyz: a new beggining....

THIS IS A damn lame blog wif lotsa vulgarities. 99% uncut and uncensored. Except for the secret character mentioned below. FYI CB means cheese buns. I repeat CB means CHEESE BUNS. The rest of the short forms u all shd noe la.... esp if u no me personally......

Some background info: Sad Boyz was officially formed on DEC 31st 03. The group consisted 3 members. Me alias dusty, Junjie alias JJ and Lionel alias darky. However Lionel left the group in late 04 and created his own band, Sian Boyz, with 1 member. Lionel alias darky....Below is the conversation in preparation for our annual AGM.Interested members, feel free to contact me.

lio-i am weakrer says:
x mas ponderosa?

zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
u serious ah
zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
hahahah

lio-i am weakrer says:
hahahaa
lio-i am weakrer says:
i serious
lio-i am weakrer says:
hahaha

zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
ok loh

lio-i am weakrer says:
bak chor mee also can

zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
wahahaha

lio-i am weakrer says:
i xmas free la....
lio-i am weakrer says:
or we eat somethin else
lio-i am weakrer says:
jio jj also

zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
of cos man
zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
sad boys

lio-i am weakrer says:
yes!
lio-i am weakrer says:
i sian boyz

zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
wrong
zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
this year all promote
zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
sadder and sianner boys
zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
let's merge lah hor

lio-i am weakrer says:
yes lA!
lio-i am weakrer says:
sebei sad and sian boyz
lio-i am weakrer says:
new grp

zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
wahahahahaha
zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
next year won't be liao

lio-i am weakrer says:
hahaha
lio-i am weakrer says:
yes!

zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
haha

lio-i am weakrer says:
cos next yr i don tink ill be ard
lio-i am weakrer says:
expand overseas
lio-i am weakrer says:
recruitment!

zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
that's our new year resouluotion every year

lio-i am weakrer says:
hahahahalio-i am weakrer says:ya lor
lio- i am weakrer says:
next yr mus be 6ppl!

zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
u xian china ppl ah
zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
wahahaha

lio-i am weakrer says:
yes la..

zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
i sian npcc one

lio-i am weakrer says:
hahha

zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
jj xian ntu one
zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
sak kee

lio-i am weakrer says:
yes
lio-i am weakrer says:
spread net wide

zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
yar lah

lio-i am weakrer says:
u can ask *censored* join us
lio-i am weakrer says:
merge wif loser boyz
lio-i am weakrer says:
hahaha
lio-i am weakrer says:
no

zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
wahahaha

lio-i am weakrer says:
we are not tat jia lat!

zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
cannot
zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
cb
zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
we merge liao no hope leh

lio-i am weakrer says:
yes la
lio-i am weakrer says:
bottomless pit
lio-i am weakrer says:
gone..

zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
waa
zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
finally found a position that doesn't hurt so much

lio-i am weakrer says:
hahahah
lio-i am weakrer says:
knn tom wake at 7
lio-i am weakrer says:
ccb
lio-i am weakrer says:
work le..
lio-i am weakrer says:
sian
lio-i am weakrer says:
ccb
lio-i am weakrer says:
work also sian hahaha
lio-i am weakrer says:
slack also sian
lio-i am weakrer says:
cb
lio-i am weakrer says:
how,..

zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
cb
zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
how i wish i can wake at 7

lio-i am weakrer says:
i no choice

zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
i've been waking in the middle of the night in pain
zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
and den cannot sleep liao

lio-i am weakrer says:
i been wakin up also
lio-i am weakrer says:
cant zzz
lio-i am weakrer says:
keep dreamin

zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
wahahaha

lio-i am weakrer says:
i jus wan zz in peace
lio-i am weakrer says:
ccb

zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
me too

lio-i am weakrer says:
hiaz
lio-i am weakrer says:
damn sad
lio-i am weakrer says:
zz also cannot

zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
let's call ourselves
zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
insomniac boys

lio-i am weakrer says:
hahahaha
lio-i am weakrer says:
INSOMNIA + SAD AND SIAN =?
lio-i am weakrer says:
lifeless boyz

zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
wahahaha
zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
dead boys

lio-i am weakrer says:
ya....

zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
featuring
zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
dark and dust

lio-i am weakrer says:
knn we shd blog tis
lio-i am weakrer says:
haha
lio-i am weakrer says:
yes la,...
lio-i am weakrer says:
dead
lio-i am weakrer says:
D D D

zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
wahahahaa

lio-i am weakrer says:
Darkness+Dust=Dead
lio-i am weakrer says:
TRIPPLE D

zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
darkness + dustness

lio-i am weakrer says:
= sadness
lio-i am weakrer says:
and sianess

zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
wahahaha

lio-i am weakrer says:
haha
lio-i am weakrer says:
wah

zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
triple D actually sounds ok leh

lio-i am weakrer says:
never ending equation
lio-i am weakrer says:
we hopeless le
lio-i am weakrer says:
hahha
lio-i am weakrer says:
DDD
lio-i am weakrer says:
KNN MUS BLOG TIS!

zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
ok
zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
we call ourselves DDD

lio-i am weakrer says:
K!

zhongyi- i'm in so much pain that i can't stop shaking says:
sak

lio-i am weakrer says:
KEE!