Favourite song of the moment....

I can't find the original MTV and this is the next best version of the song. If only I can sing and strum like him... must practise on singing the falsetto notes, I sound like crows.... ha

Tears and Rain
How I wish I could surrender my soul;

Shed the clothes that become my skin;

See the liar that burns within my needing.

How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.

How I wish I had screamed out loud,Instead I've found no meaning.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,

All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.

Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.

I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.

It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;

Hold memory close at hand,Help me understand the years.

How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.

How I wish I would save my soul.I'm so cold from fear.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,

All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.

Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.

I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.

Far, far away; find comfort in pain.

All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.

It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

And let the day begin

Woooooooooooooooooooooo

Woke up at 6.30am instead. My stupid brother was making a lot of noise while preparing for his stuffs. Pack bag also cannot pack quietly. Long time since i last saw the dark blue sky in the morning. I can feel my bed beckoning me but I've told myself to stay away from it. A lot of things need to be done today.

It's already week 4 and I'm still stuck in week satu. I've overspent a little last week and I shall force myself to mug this week. The room needs some cleaning cos it's affecting my mood. Must clear some space in my com too. Work work

Hm.... macdonalds in 10mins

life's a struggle

I've figured the way to improve my life is to be super disciplined.

and my first challenge is to get myself off the bed by 8am tomorrow......

wish me luck

Jialat!

..... there's no recordings of the 3003 lectures. Well done for ponning all the lectures!!! Now I have to make sense out of the weird weird drawings in the notes.

I've decided that computing labs are quite fun.

I've finally almost recovered. haha... hope i can go for ice cream tomorrow.....

.....

I wish I can just focus on one thing and be happy, but life is never going to be that easy. I guess i'm not good enough. When i think i have gained enough experience, I fall again at the exact same spot. When i think i have too many good things in life, i think again and realise they rn't really mine. Life is really an endless cycle of pain and we are just trying to get immune. And life plunge deeper into the flesh each time we take a step forward. Many times, I smile at troubles and hope they go away. Many times, they stay behind and laugh at me. Why do goals seem so clear at first but they blur out as you approach? Why is it so easy to get lost when you try to follow your heart?

why am i thinking so much.... am i depressed?

When it rains, it pours

i'm coughing so much i think my windpipe is damaged, and I have to kena diarrhoea also. Must be the strepsils.

Many things coming up. Next week I'll experience the full blast of schoolwork with 2 lab modules and many tutorials to do. NPCC welcome tea is on monday and I need to prepare the PPT slides; hopefully i can get it done tomorrow. have to do the namelist for Timothy as well.

Going to see the philips cup tomorrow. haha..... wonder where i can dao bao dim sum near the indoor stadium.

bloody footprints all around

I don't look at the floor when I move around in my house, but I shall not trust it too much from now onwards. My toe is still bleeding after kicking the pot....

Why's the bloody pot on the floor??!!!

Tomorrow is clear shit day

School is starting in a day's time and once again, I have pushed everything till now to settle. So here's what I need to do in the next 24 hours

1) sleep
2) clean room
3) reply email
4) print notes
5) find my calculator
6) call some people
7) type some documents
8) do some planning

let's see if i can finish

back from slackers camp

If you're wondering where I have been, i was going through an extension of the npcc foc, also known as slackers' camp. In this camp, we locked ourselves in the bunk and played rounds after rounds of lao sai dai dee, bridge and 99. We also had picnic at the art fac where they have carpet grass on the rooftop that pokes your skin if you sit on it. So far so good...

Which reminds me.... I skipped another camp to go for this slackers' camp and I'm feeling very guilty about it. Chongmeng tried very hard to get us involved and we even promised to go for the hall camp. It was also a good opportunity to meet up with old hallmates since i've moved out sometime ago, but I really couldn't make it. Arggg..... guilty!

I shall not make anymore empty promises in the future.

sorethroat and slight flu.... maybe this is punishment